Sunday, April 29, 2007
I Had To Do It
I made the mistake in emailing my caseworker today. I had to. I just needed to know what was going on and why it is taking so long for a referral. I knew there would be no good news but I did it to myself as usual, again. I have been irritated lately because I have come to the realization that my immigration clearance is also going to expire before the baby comes home. That paperwork was a pain to do and very expensive. I am not trying to put a price tag on my son, but having to repeat things that shouldn't need to be redone irritates me. I heard the cost went up also. So I emailed Jennifer to tell her that it will be expiring. I was hoping she would say- Don't worry I was just about to call you to tell you that we have a baby for you- yeah right. Instead she said that I need to keep all my forms and passports up to date. Of course, what else would she say. Also she said that she is saddened at the fact that our family has had to wait this long and she still feels hopeful. She said she will speak to Cathwel this week and try to get information or advice. Advice? Advice on what - Wait longer? I know other families have had to wait longer than me, but sometimes I don't think I can take it any more. Have I said this already in previous posts? I should check the dates I write things. Maybe it is monthly thing. You know what I mean. So, the baby ducklings have been keeping me busy, but they aren't the same. I can't put diapers on them, well I could but that would be weird. Actually I was lying on the rug with them tonight and one of them pooped on my arm. That might happen with my son. All I want is to know who he is and I won't complain anymore, I promise. So everyone wish really hard and make my next post be the big one.
Friday, April 27, 2007
Re Introduction
I thought I would re-indroduce my family for those who don't want to scroll all the way down to the end and read everything again. My husband Billy and I started this journey in August of 2005. We thought the journey would end by October of 2006, but here we still are without a baby or a referral even. That is OK though. I am getting content waiting. We finished our homestudy up in Dec of 2005 and were put on the waiting list at Cathwell at the end of that year. Our adoption agency is FCA. We have requested an infant male. We have two girls at home now ages 11 and 9. We live in NH on two acres in a cute white house which you can find at the other end of this blog. We have many animals, although not as many as we used to. We own Subway restaurants so that is where me and my hubby spend our days together and the girls also during vacation. Now contrary to what you might see everywhere else, our Subways are clean. I feel the need to mention that because I see alot of stores that are dirty and mine are not. Oh and my husband and I actually get along most of the time even though we work and live together. So we have been waiting and waiting for a long time. To add to it, we are building a house in Florida and are moving in the winter. So, I do need him home as soon as possible. I don't want to get off the plane and get into the Uhaul. Not my initial plan. But I will take what I can get at this point. So we are hoping for a call soon. The only thing is that there haven't been too many referrals coming out of Cathwell lately and I know of at least a few families ahead of me. So my guess is no referral until June. That would put us at 17 months. Anything later than that and I will be dead, dead from waiting. So that is us in a nutshell. We are a quiet happy family with all four passports ready to go. Just need our "William".
Thursday, April 26, 2007
ARGGGGGGGHHH!!!
OK, this is getting crazy. My computer broke for a couple weeks and I thought for sure, I would get a call then. Nope. We are almost at 16 months now. We did have a couple of babies-ducklings that is. I will be satisfied with them for now. They actually keep me as busy as my daughters did when they were born. Soon I will be getting my fingerprints redone and if nothing happens by August my big stuff expires. My immigration paperwork. Lots of money. Well I wish I had more to say. It is always the same. I will report good news when it comes.
Sunday, April 01, 2007
Yes, we are still waiting....15 months!
I hate to say it. There has been no call. Family asks and all I can say is I don't know. I would never change my mind about adopting from this wonderful country. I would do it again in a heartbeat, but I have to say this waiting is killing me. Nothing in my life has been as hard as this. Wondering if he is lying there in the orphanage yet. Wondering why the mom's haven't picked us. My caseworker said we are being shown, so why not us. It is almost better not to know when you reach the top of the pile, because you expect a call. When it doesn't come, it is heartbreaking. I know the right mom will find us, but please soon. I don't want to wait anymore. The even worse thing is that I know of other families waiting longer than me. So knowing that worries me also. I keep thinking that putting all those animal pictures in my photo album might be hurting us. Or maybe the fact that we are self-employed scares the mothers. Maybe we don't make enough. I thought they liked Subway in Taiwan. Maybe they think we will make him work there. Well, at least the mother who picks us will like us for who we are. I can't wait to meet her. I am going to give her the biggest hug and say Thank You. I am going to take a picture of her with Me and William and I am going to frame it and put it on the wall next to his crib so he can see her when he goes to sleep and wakes up everyday. Now just pick us!!!
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