Yes, we are still waiting....15 months!

I hate to say it. There has been no call. Family asks and all I can say is I don't know. I would never change my mind about adopting from this wonderful country. I would do it again in a heartbeat, but I have to say this waiting is killing me. Nothing in my life has been as hard as this. Wondering if he is lying there in the orphanage yet. Wondering why the mom's haven't picked us. My caseworker said we are being shown, so why not us. It is almost better not to know when you reach the top of the pile, because you expect a call. When it doesn't come, it is heartbreaking. I know the right mom will find us, but please soon. I don't want to wait anymore. The even worse thing is that I know of other families waiting longer than me. So knowing that worries me also. I keep thinking that putting all those animal pictures in my photo album might be hurting us. Or maybe the fact that we are self-employed scares the mothers. Maybe we don't make enough. I thought they liked Subway in Taiwan. Maybe they think we will make him work there. Well, at least the mother who picks us will like us for who we are. I can't wait to meet her. I am going to give her the biggest hug and say Thank You. I am going to take a picture of her with Me and William and I am going to frame it and put it on the wall next to his crib so he can see her when he goes to sleep and wakes up everyday. Now just pick us!!!